I’ve learned to hold everything loosely because it hurts when God pries my fingers from it   ~ Corrie Ten Boom ~ 

A transaction happened tonight between my Maker and I 

“Take me and break me, mould me and make me” was my prayer tonight… to live a life called surrender…  

I think He just might take me up on that.. and when He does, I hope I will remember this prayer and the fervency with which I prayed it… and I pray that He will grant me the grace to go through with what He needs to do in me. For I want to pass through the fire, refined like precious stones, not burnt up like hay or straw. 

Struggled I did… wrestled as He brought to surface items, attitudes, people, motivations, assumed rights, desires, etc. that I hold close to my heart one at a time – “are you  willing to surrender these?” I sensed Him nudge gently but firmly. Not a painless process, yet liberating as, down on my knees snot-faced talking to God and singing “lead me to the cross”, I began to lay certain things down at the altar.  

He’s certainly not done with me yet! But nothing would be worse than missing out on the purpose of my life because I couldn’t, or should I say, wouldn’t, let go of a bowl of soup – to miss out on the destiny God authored. 

See, God doesn’t want nor need the things we hold (He can take it at will if He wanted to) but He wants it because they are the key to our heart and what He wants is the key to our heart – He wants my heart. The God of the universe, the Creator of all life, King above all kings, Ruler of heaven and earth, wants my heart??? Who can fathom this   

I only have one heart – one heart to give fully, one heart to love one person the MOST. I want that one person to be God. I only have one life – I want to live the life authored by my loving Creator, Who penned down every moment of it from start to finish before I was conceived in the natural, when I existed in His thought – carved out the path that I would walk, the course that I would run. And to hear Him say “well done, my good and faithful servant”, I will stay… for He has set eternity in my heart… and yours. 

Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also ~ Matthew 6:19, 21

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Burn!                 

Tonight, I out ate Joram Bartholomew Lemuel Suede. I bet ya he’s feeling real bad going down against a girl, and especially after all the taunts he dished out from the outset of our little bet (eh hem. I mean… competition).  

In his own words, “Burn!”     J 

One small step (well, mouthful) for Amy, one giant leap for little people kind! J   Isn’t it funny the extent we will go just to WIN? I’m not feeling so great right now… I normally have two slices. Tonight, I had four! I think I ate the same portion of the metre long pizza as Christopher! And what’s made it worse is that I’ve had to drink gallons of water to quench the thirst the flavoursome pizzas stimulated! It’s also funny how we are able to stretch beyond what we think our limits are when we are motivated.

The Greatest Love Story Ever   

What I’m saying is that whilst these asian dramas and the likes of Noting Hill, Serendipity, Pride & Prejudice etc… make for good entertainment (some may beg to differ) realise that we are actually IN the greatest love storey ever! The real stuff! One day girls, perhaps God might send us a knight in shining armour to sweep us off our feet (figuratively speaking of course)… and for the blokes, perhaps He might provide for you your Eve – but know that nothing, absolutely nothing can compare with, nor take the place of Christ’s love.

(BTW, this isn’t one of the blogs that’s been brewing… I think I shall leave one for publishing tomorrow… so continue to stay tuned.. I thought I’d better get this one up before it becomes too irrelevant!) 

It’s Ricky’s birthday!!! (well, at least it was when I first started on this blog) I’ve come up with my own little version of acrostic thing-a-magic for him (I was going to do one for “Rickford” but realised that I’d have had to think of three extra words!)… prolly not as good as Nicholas’, but here goes: 

R eliable (he’s also 1 of those kinds of people where whenever he’s arnd, you feel safe)

I ntegerous (I think I’ve just made up a word… “Integerous” in-te-ge-rus full of integrity)C onsistent K nowledgeable (*hint* he’s great to have on your trivia pursuit team!)Y ellow J (not his skin colour… that’d be white – did you know he’s almost the same colour as little Violet?) – yellow is the colour symbolic of friendship J he’s a really great friend! 

My shpill on Ricky………………  I started writing “I’ve known him for seven odd years…” and all these memories popped into mind that I’d have like to write about… but realised in time that this blog would go on forever! So the “nut-shell” version will have to do (if Ricky was reading this he’d be letting out a sigh of relief just about now). 

Indeed he is one of those unsung heroes, serving away in the background never really drawing attention to himself nor seeking the praises of man. He’s been and continues to be an inspiration to many by his life example – one who upholds the principles of God and cares more about the walk rather than the talk. One who is willing to go against the grain, to swim against the tide for what he believes in. 

I’ve had the privilege of doing life with him and watching him grow through different seasons. I’ve been blessed muchly by his constant encouragements and he has taught me much. There’s soooo much in him… I think more than he realises. I know that God has an amazing plan for his life beyond his greatest imagination (and that’s something… Ricky’s pretty creative!). My prayer is for the fulfillment of everything God has installed for him because I am convinced that there is no better place to be than to be smack bang in the centre of God’s Will. 
~ Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.(Rom 12:2)~ 

So, my grudge about his pumpkin patch jokes aside, I really appreciate him and count it as a huge God-given blessing to be doing life with him in this season. Happy Birthday Rickford!!! 

(btw, he’s the coolest OP 1er eva because he’s not just a high achieving bookworm… but he can break-dance – ask for a demo J – play the bass and the electric, and he’s good at sports!)

(about 5 years ago) from block-like amateur ……….   (2007) to natural pro J

Testing 1, 2, test, test…… and ……….. we’re on!! Wow! My very own blog! J How exciting! 

… oops.. I mean, Dear Blog, ….. heheh J 

Now,   I feel that I must warn you… I don’t have much of a flare in writing as some possess… in fact I can become quite incoherent at times… so please bear with me. This isn’t much of a FIRST blog entry, but I’ve given up the ideal of a “Perfect” blog entry and thought I’d just go for it! and get rid of the “Not Found” comment on this page! (& to put a smile of Mei’s face J) 

I do have two entries in the pot to be served soon… very soon… so watch this space!!

signing off ~  ayms J